Companions: Apathy & Lethargy

This past year I have experienced a degree of loneliness, sometimes feeling like I have no one but myself to count on. In a sense, I guess it's true. Yet the overriding effect is finding myself sitting on my own little island walled off from the rest of the world. And more often than not, there seems to be a comfort in being with onself.

Looking beyond the wall to the people that surround me, I see them differently. They are people who are momentairly part of my life and my heart, but none that have made it their home. And with this isolation, there has creeped in an ounce of apathy - for these momentary characters. It isn't really insensitvity, but surely I have become less sensitive.

I fail to 'put in my all' in these passing relationships because they are just that - passing. And I do not wish to see my love and commitment to be tossed aside as these relationships pass by me in a few months.

It is funny how Apathy brings along a companion - Lethargy. It's almost like those Buy 1 Get 1 Free offers.

A heavy sigh..

I am tired.