Deja Vu

It’s been a while…

I have cyclical phases in my life. At the peak of a cycle, my life constitutes a flurry of activity, with me blazing forward, no time to stop, no time to breathe.

And then it all slows down. Picture scenes from the Matrix if you will. It’s this moment where you decide to pause, take a deep breath and watch the bullets whizz by in absolute slow motion.

I’ve missed this. Taking five minutes off, to reminisce.

I’ve been through all of this before. The rush, the emotions, the pressure. It’s all the same. The same issues about whether the people you got so close to during that period of immense activity will remain with you when things start to slow down. Let me tell you, some do and some don’t. And some you don’t want with you anymore.

I wonder if that’s what life is going to be like. A ride on the Giant Wheel. One revolution later, you’re still looking at the same scenery. But this time you’re less terrified because you’ve done it before. All of it’s the same and so are you.

I was talking to a cousin of mine about this. I met him after about two years and he asked me, ‘So, am I different?’ Not really. I explained that maybe we grow professionally, acquiring new skills, but intrinsically we will always remain the same.

We react the same way when someone pisses us off, we will always feel an inferiority complex around some people, we will cry for the same reasons, fear for the same reasons, laugh for the same reasons..

It’s true. Some things never change.