Friday, August 31, 2007

Last Month On Discovery...

Life starts to speed up, and you forget to take a moment and pause. Well, I know I have.

So many events, so many emotions, so many memories all crammed into this one month. But there has been a central theme: Discovery.

The first was a bit of a downer. I discovered my greatest flaw. I had been so busy climbing up the ladder, that I completely ignored the celing above me. It is not a limitation, however, but a reminder to build up that extra strength for the time when I am going to have to drill right through.

The next was a rediscovery - my professional high. Managing an event has its charm and a hold on me that gets my heart racing. A rush of adrenalin, my mind moves into the next gear. And I know what I want to do for the rest of my life. Well, if nothing else, task discovered, manifestation unknown.

The last channel I discovered is my favourite.
You know, you can sit and plan your career and aim to be the best and what you do - a noble dream, but the consequence: an empty life. I always come back to this because it is the reason to live: the people.

For two years I roamed this 'new place' seraching for people to connect with. I found great candidates, but nothing that stuck. The feeling just wasn't there.
But a week ago, I found it. I found the feeling - to love people so much that you feel light just thinking about it. Some of the candidates are the same, the emotion they evoke now much stronger. And then there are new candidates, who perhaps are the ones who broke the lock and kicked in the doors...

There have been horrible days and fantastic days. The difficult ones, a struggle to get through and the best, too short.

Reminiscing, I am content. It's been a great month. And that's all we ever really want...